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Sunday, December 11, 2011
Thursday, November 24, 2011
Because I Know I Can Tell You Anything
Well...it's day 4 of the liquid diet. I'm down nearly 10lbs from when I got on the scale on Monday morning. Let me preface this by saying that I am not a fan of doing stuff like this; the whole idea of the band (for me, anyway) was to be able to do something more healthy, and sustainable in the long term, without having to resort to stuff like this. That said...:
I can't lie to you...it's been awesome getting on the scale and seeing a drop every single morning. It's been a LONG time since that's happened. Maybe since the original liquid diet. But I also can't lie that I've been perfect. First of all, I'm supposed to have 3 shakes per day, along with low carb veggies. I planned for 2 shakes per day, because I know I just can't face three of those things in a day. The last 2 days I've managed one of them. Plus coffee, tea, water, and a Babybel cheese here and there. I've also had some walnuts, sunflower seeds, and on Tuesday I did have vodka, but that was strictly for the safety of those around me.
Every bit of food I've put in my mouth has had no carbs or virtually no carbs. And there's been precious little. But it does seem to be working. Although I am HUNGRY as SHIT a lot of the time, the hunger is waning. I'm also more focused than I've been in months. The hunger isn't ruling me, because I'm DOING something here. And no carb cravings. Seriously.
So...thus far, I'm not suggesting you follow in my footsteps...but at the same time, I'm not suggesting you don't. Because it does seem to be working. However, I think the proof is going to be in the upcoming weeks. Will I be able to sustain the loss? Will one little fuck-up take me back down the carb-craving road again with a vengeance? I dunno. I hope not.
I can't lie to you...it's been awesome getting on the scale and seeing a drop every single morning. It's been a LONG time since that's happened. Maybe since the original liquid diet. But I also can't lie that I've been perfect. First of all, I'm supposed to have 3 shakes per day, along with low carb veggies. I planned for 2 shakes per day, because I know I just can't face three of those things in a day. The last 2 days I've managed one of them. Plus coffee, tea, water, and a Babybel cheese here and there. I've also had some walnuts, sunflower seeds, and on Tuesday I did have vodka, but that was strictly for the safety of those around me.
Every bit of food I've put in my mouth has had no carbs or virtually no carbs. And there's been precious little. But it does seem to be working. Although I am HUNGRY as SHIT a lot of the time, the hunger is waning. I'm also more focused than I've been in months. The hunger isn't ruling me, because I'm DOING something here. And no carb cravings. Seriously.
So...thus far, I'm not suggesting you follow in my footsteps...but at the same time, I'm not suggesting you don't. Because it does seem to be working. However, I think the proof is going to be in the upcoming weeks. Will I be able to sustain the loss? Will one little fuck-up take me back down the carb-craving road again with a vengeance? I dunno. I hope not.
Tuesday, November 22, 2011
Four Pounds!
One day of semi-torture, and my scale says I'm down 4 pounds. Water weight is a powerful thing! I was surprised by how much I peed yesterday, actually. You're welcome for sharing.
Last night I had my last shake at around 7:30. By 9:30 I was starving, so I decided to eat 2 tablespoonfuls of sunflower seeds and go to bed so I would stop thinking about food. The sunflower seeds definitely stopped my tummy growling! Going to bed at a ridiculously early hour so you stop thinking about eating...that's an old dieter's trick taught to me by my mother.
Today is going to be about keeping busy so I don't think about food. I'm a little weak and dizzy, but I know (from experience) that will pass. My biggest obstacle will be that today is my big boy's 11th birthday. That usually means taking him to some fast food place for lunch, or out to dinner. So I'm going to have to exercise some major control at lunchtime. His present is he and daddy going on a road trip to see an AHL game - he's a big Penguins fan, so they're going to Binghampton, NY to see a game. It'll be his first trip to the States, and he's VERY excited about seeing what the USA looks like (I can't wait to hear how disappointed he's going to be when he sees that it's exactly the same as here) and getting to use his passport. How am I old enough to have an 11 year old??
Laundry and cleaning the bedroom, here I come!
Last night I had my last shake at around 7:30. By 9:30 I was starving, so I decided to eat 2 tablespoonfuls of sunflower seeds and go to bed so I would stop thinking about food. The sunflower seeds definitely stopped my tummy growling! Going to bed at a ridiculously early hour so you stop thinking about eating...that's an old dieter's trick taught to me by my mother.
Today is going to be about keeping busy so I don't think about food. I'm a little weak and dizzy, but I know (from experience) that will pass. My biggest obstacle will be that today is my big boy's 11th birthday. That usually means taking him to some fast food place for lunch, or out to dinner. So I'm going to have to exercise some major control at lunchtime. His present is he and daddy going on a road trip to see an AHL game - he's a big Penguins fan, so they're going to Binghampton, NY to see a game. It'll be his first trip to the States, and he's VERY excited about seeing what the USA looks like (I can't wait to hear how disappointed he's going to be when he sees that it's exactly the same as here) and getting to use his passport. How am I old enough to have an 11 year old??
Laundry and cleaning the bedroom, here I come!
Monday, November 21, 2011
Shake One...Down!
Ok...it's 2:23 in the afternoon and I'm just having my first shake. I'm starving! I had to go to a funeral at noon for a friends' mum, so I'm only getting to "eat" now...but it's remarkable when I have this focus...this THING that I'm doing...how much easier it is to turn off the little voice in my head that's been controlling me. Why is it so much easier to quit food cold turkey (so to speak) than it is to manage my intake. Arg!!
These things taste EXACTLY the same. Yuck. However...I am envisioning my liver shrinking as I type this. lol!
OH! And news: I got a little Christmastime job at the LCBO (the Liquor store in Ontario - it's controlled by the gov't). It's like the mother ship is calling me home! When they asked me in my interview why I wanted to work there, one of my answers was "because it will bring me close to the wine...and who wouldn't want to be close to the wine?" And they hired me ANYWAY! Suckers!!! I'm excited! I'm hoping to make a little money to help with xmas, and maybe enough to fund Chicago next year. Wheee!
These things taste EXACTLY the same. Yuck. However...I am envisioning my liver shrinking as I type this. lol!
OH! And news: I got a little Christmastime job at the LCBO (the Liquor store in Ontario - it's controlled by the gov't). It's like the mother ship is calling me home! When they asked me in my interview why I wanted to work there, one of my answers was "because it will bring me close to the wine...and who wouldn't want to be close to the wine?" And they hired me ANYWAY! Suckers!!! I'm excited! I'm hoping to make a little money to help with xmas, and maybe enough to fund Chicago next year. Wheee!
Slim Time - Day One
Almost 2 years later...here I am again...on shakes. This will be a one week odyssey, purely to get my system back on track after too much sugar, and hopefully, to gain control before x-mas, so I don't go crazy.
Theoretically, this time around should be easier. I have a band now, and that helps with my hunger, so I shouldn't experience the wild starvation that I experienced during the first week of shakes last time. And I'm wondering if maybe...just MAYBE...if the fast is going well at the end of the week, if I won't order a couple more boxes and do one more week, to really gain some ground in terms of actual weight loss. I guess I'll have to see. Last time, in the almost 3 weeks I did shakes, I lost 25lbs. Not that I am under the delusion that I'd lose anything close to that at this point, but still.
Right now I haven't 'eaten' anything yet (shakes will be lunch and dinner), am drinking a coffee, and I'm not hungry, so it's easy to speculate. I do feel really happy that I'm doing something to take control. Yay me!
Downward spiral to come...
Theoretically, this time around should be easier. I have a band now, and that helps with my hunger, so I shouldn't experience the wild starvation that I experienced during the first week of shakes last time. And I'm wondering if maybe...just MAYBE...if the fast is going well at the end of the week, if I won't order a couple more boxes and do one more week, to really gain some ground in terms of actual weight loss. I guess I'll have to see. Last time, in the almost 3 weeks I did shakes, I lost 25lbs. Not that I am under the delusion that I'd lose anything close to that at this point, but still.
Right now I haven't 'eaten' anything yet (shakes will be lunch and dinner), am drinking a coffee, and I'm not hungry, so it's easy to speculate. I do feel really happy that I'm doing something to take control. Yay me!
Downward spiral to come...
Saturday, November 19, 2011
Question
Why are the negative stimuli (getting painfully stuck, sliming, feeling sick, being riddled with guilt for having eaten *insert sinful, guilt inducing food choice here*, feeling bloated and over-full, hating yourself) never enough to make us stop eating when we feel full? Or, more importantly, why don't they stop us from STARTING in the first place? I mean...if you reach out and touch an electric fence and you get a big shock...chances are, you're not gonna touch that electric fence again. Right? Shouldn't it work the same with eating? Does this make any sense? Any psychiatrists in the audience want to take a crack at this?
(PS: I would also accept chiming in from armchair psychiatrists on this one)
(PS: I would also accept chiming in from armchair psychiatrists on this one)
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