...but Steph was right. Blogging DOES seem to be the key to success. Or at least some kind of writing about what you're doing and how you're feeling. Not that I didn't know this; I totally did, but somehow, my head has gotten stuck fairly far up my arse...so thanks Steph (et al), for helping me to pull it out.
Right now, on livestrong.com, my daily calorie allowance, in order to lose 2 lbs a week, is 1124. That's not a lot. And it is SUPER easy to get there. Alarmingly easy...even in banded life. But what I will say is, even though I've gone over my calories almost every day...it is extremely rare, and always alcohol related if I get over 2000 calories. Which must be why I'm not gaining. But logging my food and BEING HONEST about it is teaching me (again) where I'm going wrong.
Based on my tracking and obsessing, I'm starting to think that I might need a fill. I seem to regularly go 3 hours before I'm hungry...yet I occasionally get stuck on things. I think I'll try to keep going with what I'm doing, even though it feels a lot like work, because I really don't want to go to my clinic (where they weigh me) until I know I'm down at least a few pounds from where I was in the summer when I got my last fill. Does that seem counterproductive? Maybe...I don't know. What I do know is that I'm trying and sometimes succeeding, and that's better than the past few months, for sure!
Tuesday, January 31, 2012
Monday, January 23, 2012
I Know BOOBs Is Long Over, But...PICTURES!
Where I dragged everybody so I could have Fat Elvis Pie...which they had run out of :(
Pizzaria Due (in honour of Kristin!)
I miss you guys!
Stay classy, Jenny!
Cheescake Factory Vixens
Just me.
Just Carmieplops
I guess this is right when we got in? I dunno...Sunday, January 22, 2012
Ah...the re-focus...or trying, anyway
It has been pointed out to me that lack of blogging and lack of success in losing weight seem to be connected. Not that I didn't know this. But I like to ignore it. Because when I'm not losing, I like to not think of stuff. Oh sweet, sweet denial.
So here's the deal: when I started all this, I was so effing OCD about food. Not just tracking it, but thinking about it constantly, and writing about it, and terrified everybody was watching me to see if I'd fail...and when I was in that place, I lost weight. Now...I seem to maintain. I'm super tired of maintaining.
I've pledged to track every day on livestrong.com. And I've pledged to NOT crap out of tracking my food just because I know I'm going to go over my calories for the day. Because what I want to learn is where I'm habitually going wrong. I know booze is a big part of it (damn you, delicious, high calorie, high carb wine!) That, and the fact that I seem to be incapable of walking anywhere in my house without passing through the kitchen to find some morcel to toss in my face hole is also a big factor. Trying to be more aware of those things.
So. That's what I'm doing. What are YOU doing?
So here's the deal: when I started all this, I was so effing OCD about food. Not just tracking it, but thinking about it constantly, and writing about it, and terrified everybody was watching me to see if I'd fail...and when I was in that place, I lost weight. Now...I seem to maintain. I'm super tired of maintaining.
I've pledged to track every day on livestrong.com. And I've pledged to NOT crap out of tracking my food just because I know I'm going to go over my calories for the day. Because what I want to learn is where I'm habitually going wrong. I know booze is a big part of it (damn you, delicious, high calorie, high carb wine!) That, and the fact that I seem to be incapable of walking anywhere in my house without passing through the kitchen to find some morcel to toss in my face hole is also a big factor. Trying to be more aware of those things.
So. That's what I'm doing. What are YOU doing?
Saturday, January 7, 2012
BYOC? Oh why not...?
Drazil’s BYOC is back after a small holiday hiatus. Yup, Bring Your Own Crazy returns!
It is 5 little questions you can answer in your own blog to give your blogging brain a break and to get to know each other better. Copy, paste and enjoy!
Let’s do a holiday/new year themed BYOC today!
1. How do you feel about NY resolutions? Do you make them? Do you forget about them quickly? Do they help you?
I LOVE resolutions! I make them like nobody's business! I don't forget them...I just feel guilty and ashamed of my weakness for not keeping them. Fun, huh? I obviously continue to make the same one: eat healthier, lose weight, blah blah. It's the same this year. I've been looking around online, trying to decide which naturopathic thing I'm going to follow this year. There are a couple of books I've looked into: The Dukan Diet, and the 4 Hour Body: An Uncommon Guide To Rapid Weight Loss, Incredible Sex and Becoming Superhuman. Obviously the second option seems a little more appealing. If anyone has read or followed either, I would LOVE some input, because obviously, I can only commit to one (for a week or so before abandoning it because someone suggested we go to a Chinese buffet...)
Other than that, I just want to eat more whole foods - planning on accomplishing this by following recipes from http://www.101cookbooks.com/ If you've never looked at this blog, do! Everything I've ever made from it has been wonderful and healthy and soul restoring.
2. Did you put up a Christmas tree? How many? Is it still up?
Yes. One. It's still up but the ornaments are off. That's something, right?
3. How many total Christmases did you choose to have to attend outside of your home?
None. Thank gods! I had xmas dinner at my house for my family and a few friends...I think there were 13 of us. I brined the turkey and it was TRANSCENDENT!!! Just sayin'...
4. What are you most looking forward to this year?
Winning the lottery. Duh.
5. Repeat question: Summarize your week in real life and in blogland this week.
While I haven't blogged in something like forever, I still read. I've especially liked looking at how you people are re-focusing, and not giving up, and always always always fighting the good fight.
It is 5 little questions you can answer in your own blog to give your blogging brain a break and to get to know each other better. Copy, paste and enjoy!
Let’s do a holiday/new year themed BYOC today!
1. How do you feel about NY resolutions? Do you make them? Do you forget about them quickly? Do they help you?
I LOVE resolutions! I make them like nobody's business! I don't forget them...I just feel guilty and ashamed of my weakness for not keeping them. Fun, huh? I obviously continue to make the same one: eat healthier, lose weight, blah blah. It's the same this year. I've been looking around online, trying to decide which naturopathic thing I'm going to follow this year. There are a couple of books I've looked into: The Dukan Diet, and the 4 Hour Body: An Uncommon Guide To Rapid Weight Loss, Incredible Sex and Becoming Superhuman. Obviously the second option seems a little more appealing. If anyone has read or followed either, I would LOVE some input, because obviously, I can only commit to one (for a week or so before abandoning it because someone suggested we go to a Chinese buffet...)
Other than that, I just want to eat more whole foods - planning on accomplishing this by following recipes from http://www.101cookbooks.com/ If you've never looked at this blog, do! Everything I've ever made from it has been wonderful and healthy and soul restoring.
2. Did you put up a Christmas tree? How many? Is it still up?
Yes. One. It's still up but the ornaments are off. That's something, right?
3. How many total Christmases did you choose to have to attend outside of your home?
None. Thank gods! I had xmas dinner at my house for my family and a few friends...I think there were 13 of us. I brined the turkey and it was TRANSCENDENT!!! Just sayin'...
4. What are you most looking forward to this year?
Winning the lottery. Duh.
5. Repeat question: Summarize your week in real life and in blogland this week.
While I haven't blogged in something like forever, I still read. I've especially liked looking at how you people are re-focusing, and not giving up, and always always always fighting the good fight.
Sunday, December 11, 2011
I Don't Do This Often...
...but I have a friend who's just started blogging! She's having her surgery in March, and is a prime candidate for BOOBdom!! She could definitely use the wit and wisdom found in your blogs and in your comments and advice! So...please click http://purplepetticoat.blogspot.com/ and have a looksee at my friend Sofie!
Welcome, Sofie!!
Welcome, Sofie!!
Thursday, November 24, 2011
Because I Know I Can Tell You Anything
Well...it's day 4 of the liquid diet. I'm down nearly 10lbs from when I got on the scale on Monday morning. Let me preface this by saying that I am not a fan of doing stuff like this; the whole idea of the band (for me, anyway) was to be able to do something more healthy, and sustainable in the long term, without having to resort to stuff like this. That said...:
I can't lie to you...it's been awesome getting on the scale and seeing a drop every single morning. It's been a LONG time since that's happened. Maybe since the original liquid diet. But I also can't lie that I've been perfect. First of all, I'm supposed to have 3 shakes per day, along with low carb veggies. I planned for 2 shakes per day, because I know I just can't face three of those things in a day. The last 2 days I've managed one of them. Plus coffee, tea, water, and a Babybel cheese here and there. I've also had some walnuts, sunflower seeds, and on Tuesday I did have vodka, but that was strictly for the safety of those around me.
Every bit of food I've put in my mouth has had no carbs or virtually no carbs. And there's been precious little. But it does seem to be working. Although I am HUNGRY as SHIT a lot of the time, the hunger is waning. I'm also more focused than I've been in months. The hunger isn't ruling me, because I'm DOING something here. And no carb cravings. Seriously.
So...thus far, I'm not suggesting you follow in my footsteps...but at the same time, I'm not suggesting you don't. Because it does seem to be working. However, I think the proof is going to be in the upcoming weeks. Will I be able to sustain the loss? Will one little fuck-up take me back down the carb-craving road again with a vengeance? I dunno. I hope not.
I can't lie to you...it's been awesome getting on the scale and seeing a drop every single morning. It's been a LONG time since that's happened. Maybe since the original liquid diet. But I also can't lie that I've been perfect. First of all, I'm supposed to have 3 shakes per day, along with low carb veggies. I planned for 2 shakes per day, because I know I just can't face three of those things in a day. The last 2 days I've managed one of them. Plus coffee, tea, water, and a Babybel cheese here and there. I've also had some walnuts, sunflower seeds, and on Tuesday I did have vodka, but that was strictly for the safety of those around me.
Every bit of food I've put in my mouth has had no carbs or virtually no carbs. And there's been precious little. But it does seem to be working. Although I am HUNGRY as SHIT a lot of the time, the hunger is waning. I'm also more focused than I've been in months. The hunger isn't ruling me, because I'm DOING something here. And no carb cravings. Seriously.
So...thus far, I'm not suggesting you follow in my footsteps...but at the same time, I'm not suggesting you don't. Because it does seem to be working. However, I think the proof is going to be in the upcoming weeks. Will I be able to sustain the loss? Will one little fuck-up take me back down the carb-craving road again with a vengeance? I dunno. I hope not.
Tuesday, November 22, 2011
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