Out of the pile of Halloween candy wrappers, that is. This last week has been a heady sugar high, basically me letting food totally control me EXACTLY the way it always has. It has actually amazed me, my lack of control over my own actions. It's scared me.
The other day, I was having a conversation with a few people about alcoholism. We were discussing what makes you an "alcoholic", and whether we'd consider ourselves to be one. And what I said was that I know I'm not an alcoholic because booze doesn't control me. And the reason I know this is because food does.
I love wine, and I enjoy drinking...but I don't think about it all the time. I don't plan my life around how I can get wine. I don't NOT go to a place because it might interrupt drinking time, or because there's better wine at home. I don't spend an entire day excited because I'm going out for wine. I don't secretly drink it and then hide the evidence. But I do all those things for food. And frankly, it's pissing me off how little control I've been having recently with regards to my eating, and how much I'm letting stupid FOOD control ME!!
This week. Today. Today I'm going to try to re-gain some of that control. I'm going to think about whether I actually feel hunger. I'm going to try to drink water. I'm going to portion my food, and only eat things that are on a plate. I'm going to chew. And I'm going to record everything on livestrong.com.
Someone should do a challenge. I do better when there's a challenge. *sigh*
I feel better now that I've told you guys that.
I think everyone struggles during this food-crazed time of year -- it can be tough to keep your head on straight between Halloween candy, Turkey day and Christmas treats! You are smart to nip this in the bud with the plan you made. Major props to you. :)
ReplyDeleteStace over at Ready2Realize is starting a new challnege.
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Good luck to you ...and to us all...tis the season!
ReplyDeleteGilly, I'm the same way. I hate that about myself, but it's something I've struggles with most of my life. I don't know how to get past the desire to eat, and the very strong desire to eat in secret! Damn!!!
ReplyDeleteSAME.
ReplyDeleteI really loved this post. I am addicted to food as well and its been a year and I still struggle. Thanks for sharing.
ReplyDeleteD*mn Halloween Candy...I swear it was crawling into my mouth on it's own...creepy!
ReplyDeleteI will tell you that although the addiction doesn't end, it does get easier in a few ways...like I can usually *wake up* from my food coma binge faster than I used to...and my weight seems to 'like' staying near 148 instead of 248.
((hugs for this post)) Love ya!
Can I just say DITTO :/
ReplyDeleteLove you!!
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