I just decided this. Just now. I think I'm going to set my goal lower. All this time it's been 170. And trust me...I'm nowhere near there! But...I think I'm going to set it lower. Because I can't ever stop fighting. I'm actually not sure I ever want to even hit 'onederland'. Because if I do, that will feel too much like a super-victory. And if I feel victorious...I might stop fighting. And tonight I realized...I never want to stop fighting this fight. I've fought it my whole life...and I LIKE being a fat chick. I just didn't like being as fat a fat chick as I got to be.
I want to be a chubby chick.
I want to feel good, and be healthy, and I don't want to stop fighting. Not ever.
NOT EVER!!!
I will always be fighting too. Even if I hit goal it will always be a fight b/c inside me is a woman who wants twinkies!!! You're awesome!
ReplyDeleteI don't think you will stop fighting. I know what you mean though. Sometimes when you achieve something, you celebrate, relax and then take 2 steps back. I think fighting to stay at goal is just a different sort of battle.
ReplyDeleteI totally want to stop fighting. I want to be one of those people who think about how nice the weather is or about what to do this weekend and not what Im going to eat later or now or tomorrow. In my life - like most of us - the food is the centre and I know that even now with the band in the FOOD is the centre but I want it to be somewhere on the outskirts. Something I should think about not something I always think about. You totally inspire me cause you do it all by your own rules so if you want the fight - like the fight - then go kick ass. I'll always cheer you on and wipe up any teeth or blood along the way. Me - I would like a hammock and a man servant and to just relax. BTW your always invited over for a rest! xx
ReplyDeleteI agree with all of these ladies, and you! I kinda want the fight to be over... but I never want to give up like I did when before I was banded. Scary thoughts!
ReplyDeleteHate to be the bearer of bad news, but the fight never ends. I've been maintaining a 65-70lb weight loss for just about four years now (non-banded, if that matters) and successful maintenance requires that you live your life the same way as you did when you were losing. You can never start living your life the same way as people who were never overweight do. It's about constant vigilance, that's the harsh reality of it. If you start falling into the trap of thinking the extra slice of pizza isn't a big deal or a week off from working out won't matter, regain starts and pounds pile on in the blink of an eye. So, no worries, blogger: don't be afraid of losing your "fight" when you reach your goal. The battle to remind mindful and focus must continue or the war will be lost.
ReplyDeleteTrust me even when you do reach goal, you never stop fighting.
ReplyDeleteI totally agree with you!!! My goal is a number I'll never reach!!!
ReplyDeleteYou are a super hero...of course you will always fight the fight! Keep on being amazing!
ReplyDeleteSpeaking as someone who is at goal, I can safely say don't worry. You will always have to fight the fight. Sometimes it is easier than others, but it doesn't go away just because the extra fat goes away.
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