Well ladies and scant few gentleman...here's the scoop: I'm out of the closet.
The other day, someone asked me (again!! why do people keep ASKING me this??) if I had lost "all this weight" with no help from weight loss surgery or anything. And my mouth (and I swear to you, I had no idea mouth was going to do this to me, but sometimes it does that at restaurants too...like you think you're going to order a burger, and then mouth opens and out comes "I'll have the chicken wings". It's a crazy renegade, my mouth - and yes I DO mean that in a plethora of ways...but I digress...) Anyhoo...I outed myself to my coffee ladies. And there and then, I made the decision that if someone out and out asked me, I'm going to come clean about the band. It is how I'm going to roll from here on in.
It actually surprises me that it took this long for mouth to out me. I'm a pretty (read: INCREDIBLY) open book. Always have been. I remember my mother's (somewhat threatening) mantra to me when I was growing up: "what goes on in this house STAYS in this house!!" So the fact that I've made it through 10 months of this journey without telling everyone I run into on the street is actually fairly miraculous to me. This new outness...it's freeing! That said, I'll tell you that I'm NOT the self-conscious type, and I'm also not really consumed with what people think of me or are saying behind my back. So that probably helps. I'm not inviting people from my life (other than some REALLY important ones) to read this blog. I'm also not concerned about being anonymous. I say what I say, and I stand behind it. I hope I'm not a malicious person, or not willfully anyway...so this is my blog, and this is my life, and right now, that's good for me.
By the way, still holding steady at 101 lbs down. Not wild about this plateau, but I know it won't be forever. As I told Jenny today, once I hit 100lbs down, anything more seems anti-climactic for me, somehow. I know it isn't, and that every pound is a victory...and yet, I'm content for now. Wonder how long this contentment will last...
I guess I didn't realize you were not out - because you are so open. I guess if it feels right in the situation it's cool to do. I've told people in my family I didn't think I would. I'm still "in" at work and about a month ago my supervisor said to me "someone asked me if you had weight loss surgery" - she was totally fishing for the info and trying to bond with me(in order to gossip). I just gave her a Mona Lisa smile.
ReplyDeleteI'm plateauing too - I need to move my booty more. I'm glad you're feeling good though - you should.
I'm not ready to be out - and I'm pretty open about lots of things, but eh.. this not so much at least not yet. I'm glad you feel good about your mouth's decision. Mine does that too - totally goes in its own direction sometimes.
ReplyDeleteYAY - good for you Gilly!
ReplyDeleteAnd that is why we TOTALLY love Gilly.. and hang in there .. I had a plateau that lasted forever.. they do drop and you continue on your merry weigh down (get it weigh!!)
ReplyDeleteI have to say, I have been pretty open about the band. It really makes no difference to me what people think about it....so there!
ReplyDeleteI too didn't know you weren't 'out'! Good for you Miss Gilly!
ReplyDeleteWas it the purple hair that compelled you?
ReplyDeleteGood for you pop tart...great decision.
ReplyDeleteI'm glad you shared this...I'm a newbie and blogged about only telling a small handful of people. I think its good that you kept it discrete and started telling people on your own terms.
ReplyDeleteI definitely think it makes things easier if you tell people. The only people I haven't told are my neighbors. Don't ask me why. I've told everybody else - family, friends, coworker, my dental hygienist, the stranger I set next to on the plane leaving Chicago...well, you get my drift. I think if they ask me straight out how I lost weight I'll tell them. Of course, nobody has said anything about my weight loss, which sucks, so I don't have to worry about it for now.
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ReplyDeleteI tell people if they ask me point-blank how I've lost weight, or what I"m doing to lose. I've mentioned it when it was relevant. it's been a comfortable way to roll.
ReplyDeleteCute. I'm joining in on the plateau though. Can't seem to move the scale. Maybe I should out completely-the important people know. I was just wondering last night where you were. So glad you're back too.
ReplyDeleteI just busted my plateau. A month at the same weight. Garrrgh! I almost went up on the roof. lol Hang in there, it will end. I promise. :D
ReplyDeleteWe all share information about different aspects of our lives when we are ready. Maybe you were ready. And your mouth knew it.
I'm pretty much out to everyone and I haven't been banded yet! (talk about pressure!! lol) I refuse to tell my basketball team though, because there is one player who is a bit of a bit*h and I don't want her to know!!! (mature-much!)
ReplyDeleteAnyway congrats on the feeling free. I know I would struggle especially if people were dishing the compliments!!
Good for you, I am so torn about telling sometimes... WOW: 101 pounds down is amazing.
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wow! 101 pounds!! That's awesome!! I wish that I could be as brave as you are. With me, I don't have a problem telling strangers, but the people I work with, nope, not going to do it. I always feel like I have to explain to waiters why I don't eat all of my food when they ask if I didn't like it. With work, I guess the rumor mill runs wild, so I don't want to tell anyone. Sometimes, I feel bad when they ask what I'm doing to lose weight, but I feel that this is a personal issue for me.
ReplyDeleteyou win. I don't think I'd feel free. But congrats to you!!!
ReplyDeleteGood for you - I am a non-lapbanded fellow Ontario girl who has stumbled across your blog and I like how you express yourself.
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