Ok...in reading the rest of the bloggy blogs, I'm noticing a disturbing trend. A LOT of us seem to be very down, and very out of sorts, and a lot of us are reporting gains. I myself might even have reported a gain...if I wasn't so terrified to get on the scale. On Saturday I was holding steady. Which is about all I'm ready to deal with right now. Sue me.
So I have this theory: all of us meeting in Chicago threw the world out of tilt. Too much fabulousness in one place. The Universe couldn't handle it. Think about it. I think you'll realize that, like always, I am right.
Where I am right now is here: I feel fat. For months, as the weight has been coming off, I've gotten pretty used to feeling thin. Not thin like thin people feel, I'm sure, but thin for me. Lap-discovering and leg-crossing thin. But I've been at this weight for 3+ weeks now. And apparently, being at one weight for too long makes my body get used to it, and now I feel fat. The HORRIFYING day I had yesterday did not help. Three words: Butter Tart Loaf. LOAF, people!!! I mean, who makes something like this?? Mennonites, that's who. And how can I be expected to just walk PAST it and not buy it?? I can't, that's how. It was a LOAF of BUTTER TART. It was filling without all the annoying crust! Come ON! And you notice I speak of it in the past tense. Because it is a former butter tart loaf. Because it's gone now. I'm not proud.
So last night, as I downward spiralled, I read a blog from my hero Joey. You might know of her. She's very dull and plain, but she makes a good point...I suggest you go have a looksee. And then I had a chat with my angel of sunshine, Jenny. And I think (and I hope I'm not speaking too soon) I might be pulling out of this. I have an appointment for a fill next week to see if that helps, and today there will be some Jillian Michaels style shredding happening. And as always, I will be reading blogs and looking for some inspiration from all you fine people.
(I bet that was the most times you ever read the words "butter tart" in one paragraph. I know...I'm evil, etc.)
Tart and loaf to describe one thing. Scary. Hang in there. You'll be feeling the skinny again!
ReplyDeleteIt may have been too much fabulous in one space at one time but even so I want to go back there - again - or right now for that matter. And she can't be your angel cuz she's mine - oh fine - I'll share just cuz I love you too! Keep on keeping on with your skinny leg crossing self mmkkaayy?
ReplyDeleteButter Tart Loaf!!!
ReplyDeleteAlexis and I were just FBing about this yesterday. About how we have lost our minds in relation to eating....and how I will be fat for the rest of my life.
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maybe if we all meet again in one location it will shift everything back in place?
It's definitely in the air, I'm having a good old fashioned pity party, you are invited....bring the butter tart loaf please. Okay, maybe not, plan B is in full force, maybe if we all concentrate hard enough, we can tilt the world back!
ReplyDeleteJust think about those three weeks as a skin-shrinking opportunity. Every time you plateau, you're giving your body a chance to catch up with all that great weight loss. As long as the scale isn't boinging up significantly, you're doing fine.
ReplyDeleteI know we all get carried away with wanting the number to be lower every day, but it's good to remember that plateaus are a part of the process -- and that annoying as they are (and as much as they make you want to smash the scale to smithereens), they aren't a bad thing.
Butter tart loaf, on the other hand. . that may be a bad one! I've never heard of it before! Must. Not. Investigate. . ! :)
P.S. Mmmmm butter tart loaf! (Darn you, Gilly!!!)
ReplyDeleteThis is definitely the first time I've ever seen Butter Tart Loaf in a sentence, much less multiple times in one paragraph. BUT, read any email from my husband any morning giving me the 'report' and you will see the world 'loaf' more than once.
ReplyDeleteAlso, you are awesome. And beautiful and I'm going to try to write something inspirational just for you. Or at least something kinda interesting.
ReplyDeleteI think you are on to something about the universe being affected.. I think the galaxay was didn't know how to handle sooo many stars!!!.
ReplyDeleteand is butter tart loaf like those sweet think butter cakes that melt in your mouth and make you addicted and want to eat the whole thing. those kind??
Hang in there.. a fill maybe the thing that kicks those desires to the curb.. hugs
I've been reading a book on Mennonites. It's like salad shooter - once I heard the term it felt like I was hearing it all the time.
ReplyDeleteThis plateau definitely sucks. I will ride your coats tails and listen to all the inspirationalness out there.
Love,
your very pedestrian friend.
Sorry you're struggling Gilly. I have found that binging and indulging in things that aren't good for me bring very strong cravings for more of the same. When I resist, I can go weeks and even months without any cravings at all. It usually takes a couple of days. I know you will get through this! The fill will help and the 24 hours of liquids will definately help! You can do it! I AM PROUD OF YOU FOR RECOGNIZING THE PROBLEM AND REGAINING CONTROL!
ReplyDeleteI don't know what a butter tart loaf is but I'm too scared to find out. Things like butter and loaf usually get me. But, you know what? This is life and every once in a while, we're entitled to a butter tart loaf. (Or a gallon of Ben & Jerry's - pick your poison)
ReplyDeleteI have never even heard of a butter tart let alone a butter tart loaf and I suspect that after reading this that I must hope desperately to never hear of them again.
ReplyDeleteDangit!
Nonetheless, you'll beat the plateau. I've come to stop calling them, stop thinking of them as plateaus, but rather as a chance for my body to catch up. Just like Catherine55 said...
Is there some sort of sacrafice we can give back to the universe? Is there a zumba dance for this???
ReplyDeleteI think its normal for this time of year...its getting darker outside a lot quicker which leaves less time for going out and working out. Back to school - crazy kids activities which means less time for US and less time means more eating and less exercising! A freakin vicious cycle!
ReplyDeleteDon't feel fat you gorgeous tater tot...you're just gearing up for the next long phase of constant weight loss.
ReplyDeleteI, also, have never heard of a butter tart loaf. But I'm pretty sure if I met one, I would like it.
ReplyDeleteGilly, come sit next to me. And bring your butter tart loaf.
ReplyDeleteI need to more about this butter tart loaf.
ReplyDeletethat is I need to KNOW more. I was so excited I couldn't type!
ReplyDeletewtf is a butter tart loaf and why do I want it so much?!?!
ReplyDeleteI have been feeling fat, too! How is that possible after losing all this weight??
My theory is that it is all because I haven't posted in like days and days and days. They cut off my blogging access at work and I have been in a tail spin, having to actually work and now you have me looking for butter tarts. I am even shopping for that shiny serum to put in my hair. I so love you. I don't even like butter tarts but a loaf-well a loaf of anything is good. I might need to go to St. Jacob's and get me one of those. I'm on my second glass of wine. Helps. Somewhat. But now all I want is a butter tart loaf. Picture please.
ReplyDeleteWhat? All I heard was butter...
ReplyDeletePlateaus s.u.c.k.- but in my saner moments, I just think of it as giving my body a little time before I shock it again with weight loss. You'll be ready with that next fill... it will give you some help, and your body will be ready to lose again. You can do this little camper.
PS- my husband drank the rest of my fav wine tonight, I was saving for tomorrow night. Now when I think of wine, I think of you...
Butter tart loaf. That is just wrong. Of course you had to buy it! And eat it!
ReplyDeleteHere's my secret to not feeling fat: Don't get on the scale until you pull out of your slump. I have not been on the scale in at least a week and I seriously find I am much happier not weighing every day.
Plus, you are totally right about way too much fabulousness in Chicago.
Feel better, shake off the B.T.L., and Shred it up. You will get over this for sure.
Gilly Gilly!
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with your address!
Cheers,
Nella
I can resist butter tart loaf but I'll definitely be getting some jelly bellies...again.
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