I am not a patient person. *sigh*
I'm having a crap day. It didn't start out that way; it started out great! I went for a walk, it was sunny and warm-ish, and it was relaxing...but from there, it's been all downhill.
Last night, while I was out, my husband decided it would be a good idea to punish my 5 year old for having a messy room and for not practicing his piano. His punishment was losing his video game privileges, AND television privileges. Since there's a TV in the living room, which is the central location of the house, this means that I can't watch TV either. That makes hubby the number one person I'd like to kill today.
Number 2 on the list would be my 5 year old. Not because he did anything bad, or un-five-year-old-like, but because I have no patience and I am the worst mother ever. I don't know how to play the piano (I always wanted to take lessons when I was a kid and my mother never let me, which actually makes HER the worst mother ever, but I digress), but I have to help the 5 year old with his lessons. So I downloaded a fun app that would help me know what the hell I'm doing, and would also make learning FUN! Right? Nope.
Because I have no patience, I'm trying to play this game with him, watching him make the same mistakes over and over, and correcting him over and over, and counting up and down from the F line and the G line over and over and over and over...and in my head I am SCREAMING and wishing I'd never had children. I'm sure my impatience is coming through in my voice, which is probably scarring him for life, and in a few years, when he shoots up a McDonalds, the note he leaves will have some reference to how he thought he was a good person until he tried to learn musical notes with his horrifying bitch of a mother. Arg.
So now...I think I will just go cry.
That does sound like a bad day. I'm a teacher and fully get what you mean about the screaming inside your head.
ReplyDeleteIf he really doesn't get his homework, he obviously needs to go over it with his teacher again (and yes I am saying this as a teacher). Teachers need to know when children make the same mistakes over and over so they can help correct them. Give both of you a break and practice other things you can do together. If practicing causes family traumas it won't do any of you any good.
And blog...
ReplyDeleteHugs!
I took piano lessons from age 6 to 16 and I swear I wouldn't be able to help someone with their music lessons now. It didn't stick. I also have no patience.
ReplyDeleteWhy do you feel bad? I won't even let me teenaged daughter frost CUPCAKES b/c she doesn't do it exactly like me. I'm the worst mother ever. You are golden. Not to mention, I would've just waited for Dad to get home and have HIM help him with the lessons. In my opinion you went above and beyond.
ReplyDeleteLove you!!
Gilly, we can start a Horrible Mothers club. I'd post about it, but it would take up six thousand million years of Internet time, and I can't tear myself from coverage of Whitney's funeral long enough to write it all.
ReplyDeleteSo I send you my love. You are a great mom, just maybe not a great piano teacher. And that's totally acceptable. xoxo
Oh geez, I really needed that laugh today!
ReplyDeleteYou are not the worst mother, but probably one of the funniest! I relate to the lack of patience thing too- and the guilt! Ugh!
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