What To Do?

So, this morning, I got on the scale, fully expecting to see a gain, because on the weekend I cooked a turkey, and when I cook a turkey, I always cover it in bacon (which is such an awesome way to do it...the meat gets basted with the bacon fat as it cooks and turns out really tender and then the bacon sort of melds to the turkey skin in this unbelievably orgasmic crispy deliciousness...well...it's really quite something and the next time you have turkey, I strongly recommend you try this method).  So, of course, as I'm getting the rest of the dinner ready, I'm picking at the bacon/turkey skin ambrosia, and when I finally get ahold of myself, I realize I've probably eaten about half a pound of bacon, along with god knows how much turkey skin (see how much restriction I DON'T have??)

So here's my problem.  I got on the scale this morning and I have actually LOST weight.  In fact, since I had my last fill 2 weeks ago, I'm down probably 5-6lbs.  Which is awesome, yes it is...but I'm scared that they won't give me another fill, even though I feel I really need one.  I feel like I'm really working to lose this weight...I feel like the band is helping minimally, and I need more help.  But I'm scared they'll say "no, we're looking for one to two pounds a week, and you're losing much more than that...everything's fine...come back when you're gaining."  What do you think?

Awards Awards Awards!!

I know it's silly...but I love love love awards!  Thank you my beloved Band Groupie for the nomination!  I will pass it along to 12 very deserving and fantabulous bloggers!

 

The Sunshine Award is awarded to bloggers whose positivity and creativity inspire others in the blogging world.

Once you receive one, then you:

1. Post the logo on your blog.

2. Pass the award on to 12 fellow bloggers.
3. Link the nominees
4. Let nominees know they have won this award by commenting on their blog.
5. Share the love and link to the person you received this award from.

These are the 12 blogs that are lighting up my hum drum world these days:

1) Band Babe

2) Athena's Melting

3) Adventures In Bandland

4) Chronicles From Bandland

5) Dreams of Skinny High Heels

6) Dinnerland

7) I Am In Repair-Angie's Banding Blog

8) Jen's Lap Band Journey

9) I'm With The Band-Kristen

10) The Weight Loss Rollercoaster

11) I'm With The Band-Carmen

and last, but certainly not least

12) The Little Bandit

Thank you ladies, for bringing so much sunshine to my life!  (and there's no reason that some are a different colour than others...I just got tired of frigging around with it...arg!)

Ok...Where Did My Restriction Go?

Hmmm...that's strange.  Everything was going ok, and now suddenly, my restriction is *poof* gone!  I can totally eat anything.  And I'm totally not even chewing properly.  I just ate 2 slices of pizza and I could absolutely eat another one.  Possibly more.  This sucks.

Fortunately, I have a fill booked on Tuesday.  Which I was really hoping to skip because I was planning on having so much wonderful restriction by now that I wasn't going to need it.  Crappity crap crap!

In Case Anyone Wants To Fall Off The Wagon

Here's what I've been craving since I heard it advertised.  OMG YUM!!!

 

This is the Wendy's Bacon and Blue Cheese burger.  And HERE'S how much is costs, nutritionally:

 

Wow.  Just wow.  I think I'm going to pass.

I'ma Be A Belly Dancer!!!

So last night, I took a little drive out to the dance studio where the belly dancing classes are being held. And just inside the door, sprawled on every available surface, were a bunch of dance-y type teenaged girls.  And so, I just kept driving.  I was way too intimidated to go in and sign up.  And then I went home and hated myself until about 10 minutes ago, when my BFF suggested I look for another class.  So I looked online on the City website, and THERE... like a shining beacon of hope...BEGINNER BELLY DANCING!!!!  At a much more convenient time, and at the same place where my little monster has pre-school twice a week (aka: a close and familiar location).  So I DID IT!!  I signed up!!  Starting in April, Gilly is a dancer!  A belly dancer!!  Stand back world!

Pictures...of ME, No Less!

Ok...here is a before and a during picture of me.  Can you see a difference in my face?  I can!

The first is taken January 4th, 2010 - just before surgery, and about 25 lbs from my highest weight.  And the second one I took just now.  Clearly I wasn't going for flattering...just trying to prove to myself that I look a little different.  I do, right?

Wow!

Today, I think my 3 year old is getting sick.  I base this on the ridiculously insane tantrums he threw when I made him leave Gramma's house today.  Like throwing himself on the floor and just laying there screaming kind of tantrums.  In which I had to put on his winter clothes while he lay there kicking at me and then had to carry his writhing and screaming body to the car.  Which nearly killed me.  And he only weighs 38lbs.  I have lost 45.  Which led me to a little NSV moment of clarity as I hobbled to the car with this VERY heavy child in my arms (true, my fat has never kicked and screamed, but still), I've lost MORE than this crappy evil kid...how did I carry all that around everywhere???  It was a wow moment, and I am so delighted that I'll be having lots more of those.

My mother just sent me an email: "Is my gransdon still alive?", which is reasonable, because when we left her house, I was really really wanting to kill him.  I replied: "Yes...he's sleeping.  Not with the fishes.  Just sleeping."

That is all.