You know...it's crazy how sometimes you can remember something so perfectly in your head...but then when you look at something documented from that time, you're actually so totally wrong about the events. (see what I did there? I admitted I can be wrong! wow!)
When I did Weight Watchers in 2003/2004, I got down to a certain weight. And that weight is 5 lbs lower than the weight I am now. Which is fantastic, right? I know!! I hit 90 lbs down this week, and that's the most I've ever lost when I've been documenting. But the reason I know exactly what my weight loss was back then is because I still have my WW books. I have them hidden in my bedside table and sometimes I take them out and lovingly caress them, remembering the good old days of being soooo much thinner. And I would have told you with absolute positivity that when I went back to work in Jan of 2004, that I was at my lowest weight. But turns out, that's wrong. When I went back in Jan 2004, I was actually a couple of pounds heavier than I am right this second! And I felt SO super skinny at the time! I didn't reach my lowest until April 2004. Eight months after I started WW. I kept attending meetings until June 2004, and by that time, the numbers had already begun to creep up. Then there are no more entries...because clearly I fell off the wagon hard and it was a steady trip up until December 2009. It was so strange and surreal to see that, because although I feel awesome, I don't feel like I think I remember feeling back then. But then again, maybe I didn't feel that skinny back then. Maybe I'm remembering it wrong.
Woah...I think I might have blown my mind...
The only thing I miss on my diet is my mind....Uh oh.. Great stuff, continued success...
ReplyDeleteI hate it when facts contradict my version of reality.
ReplyDeleteI'm so impressed that you didn't write a HUGE post about kicking my butt in the challenge.
I heart you Gillybeane!
I think you're super skinny and gorgeous and that it's TOTALLY time for a new Gilly VLOG and some NEW pics!
was that the sound i heard?
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the mind & the memory are funny things huh?
Kudos on the 90 lbs lost! :)
ReplyDeleteI just made a post about something similar. I too must admit that I have all of my WW books too in a very secret place!
ReplyDeleteYou are doing great! 90 lbs down in less than a year - amazing! Don't worry about how you felt back then - that is the past and our memories can play trick on our minds. How do you feel right now, right this second - that is what's real. And if you don't feel as good as you should - like FABULOUS - then find a way to get there! You are a huge inspiration! Keep it up! <3
ReplyDelete90 lbs down is freakin' amazing cupcake.
ReplyDeleteI too am a documenter...I can tell you what my weight and measurements were throughout my entire adult life. I too have had instances where I remember feeling smaller or larger than I did at the identical weight but at a different phase of my life...I think it has to do with everything else that is happening in your life at that time.
WWWWWOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!! NINETY!!!!!!!!!
ReplyDeleteYes, I have done the same. I remember myself thinner and more satisfied at the same weight years ago. Selective memory. I think I expect more with the band than I did with other weight loss attempts.
Rock on! And this is ironic, bc I just found a WW book from 2001, an attempt I totally forgot about.
ReplyDeleteAs I just posted on TessieRose's blog, I think the "it doesn't feel as good this time at this weight" syndrome is directly tied to the "I'm going to get to goal" syndrome. In other words, this time we really believe we are going all the way, so we don't savor this moment like we would when we knew in our heart of hearts, this moment wouldn't last. Make sense? I hope so!
I vote for another Gilly vlog as well!!!!
Wow -- that is awesome!! Congratulations on surpassing that number! I wish I had kept all of my many WW books so that I could have looked at the nos. as I lost. Alas, I threw them out b/c I was afraid someone else would see the numbers. . Oh well!
ReplyDeleteI completely understand. Yay for you on the 90 pounds lost. That must feel wonderful!
ReplyDeleteI have a ton of those books in storage! That reminds me, time to THROW OUT!!!!
ReplyDeleteWay to go! You are doing amazing! Keep it up sista!
You are just doing amazing!
ReplyDeleteHere's to 100 my lovely friend....I couldn't be more proud.
ReplyDelete90! So amazing! I understand what you mean. I remember being a 14 years ago and feeling a lot skinnier. It may be that is was a body in my 20's, more fit and pre-baby.
ReplyDeleteI have a weird feeling you're going to beat me to 100. I've got 6 to go. Is it on?
Funny, I was just thinking the same thing the other day. I'm maintaining/losing at a lower weight than I've been at for any period of time in year. Years. But I don't feel thin. Better, sure. More able, less all-around gross. But not thin.
ReplyDeleteHmmmm.
I meant to say "any period of time in years." But i've had a little wine.
ReplyDeleteI wish I had kept my weight watchers books, they were torn up and destroyed after a terrible bout of 'falling of the wagon'. Never to be seen again:P
ReplyDeleteYou're the bomb dot com. Love!
ReplyDeleteI still have calendars from as far back as 15 years ago documenting my daily, weekly, monthly, incessant weight loss attempts. I never actually kept the WW books...because I always quit after a few weeks anyway! I did lose doing WW online...and of course promptly gained it all back, and then some.
ReplyDeleteSo awesome you are 90+ down! Amazing!