I got on the scale this morning, and I just about fell off. Through no fault of my own, I'm about 6 lbs away from being 100 lbs down. Honestly...the last 10 or so lbs, I have not worked for at all. Kind of hate me right now, don'tcha? I know, I know. I honestly don't know what I've been doing, but I hope I can keep on doing it! I consider it karmic balance from the times when I worked my ample ass off and practically starved myself and lost nothing. I enjoy perfect symmetry.
So, this weigh in has meant 2 things to me, and I'm getting excited about both of them:
1) It means I'm just a couple of pounds away from the lowest I ever got in my WW recorded weight loss attempts. After that, I consider myself in fresh weight loss territory, and it's wildly exciting and mildly surreal to be so close to that place.
2) 100 lbs lost. Say WHAT?? I mean come ON!! Part of me is so super crazy proud of myself, I want to shout it from the rooftops...I want to get a sign board that lights up and walk up and down the street, shaking pop poms...I want to have it tattooed on my forehead so everyone can go "wow!". And the other part of me wants to lie about how much I've lost because I still have a long way to go, and I want to shield myself from the thin people judging me. It's a mixture of pride and shame I've never felt before. I will call it "prame". Or perhaps "shride". Not sure...I'll work on it. Suggestions welcome.
So...that's where I am at the moment. I'm running out of clothes that fit, and I look horrible in pants (damn stumpy legs...grrr...arg!) so honestly, I'm really looking forward to the clothing exchange in Chicago...dress/skirt people, Auntie Gilly needs you! My s-i-l just sent me a 30% off thing for The Gap/Old Navy etc as well...so maybe it's time to go shopping! At least aspirationally shopping as far as The Gap is concerned. I honestly don't think I've ever even looked there for clothing for myself. Also on the menu...underpants. I'ma get some NON-granny-panties. Exciting, no? Try and calm yourselves...and stop picturing me in my underpants! Nah, just kidding...totally keep on doing it ;)
Gilly - that is AWESOME!!!! Be Proud!!! You are a rockstar!!!
ReplyDeleteWould you hate me if I said "I feel ya". Great work, great stuff, be very proud, look up, strut and continue.,. As we will with you,..,,
ReplyDeleteI do that same thing with not wanting to tell EVERYONE how much I've lost so far because while 80+ pounds is great, I still have a lot to lose. But you know what, we're not who we were and we shouldn't be ashamed of what we were...because we've taken the steps to make our lives better. People *should* applaud the effort we've made so far and if they don't, screw them. Who needs 'em?!?
ReplyDeleteYou rock!
ReplyDeleteWow, just wow!
ReplyDeletego you!
ReplyDeleteI hear you on the prame shride. I totally have it, too. With 90+ lbs to go, it's hard to say, "Yes, my fat a$$ has already lost 107 lbs. Yes, I am still fat, thankyouverymuch." I hear ya, loud and clear!
ReplyDeleteCongrats!!!
Dude. You should feel nothing but pride at being nearly 100 pounds down! That is an incredible accomplishment!! So what if you still have more to go?! You are doing phenominally and all of your success so far shows that you are going all the way on this WL journey. I'm totally impressed with you, lady!
ReplyDeleteI didn't see this in your post -- what sizes do you need?? I'm pretty sure that some of the Sisterhood could motivate to send you things pre-Chicago if you're desperado. :) We've all been there. I actually stayed home from work once because I didn't have any clothes that fit. Not kidding.
I am super crazy proud of you. Go Gilly. Something to celebrate in Chicago.
ReplyDeletePride, pride and more pride...that's all you should feel right now...and maybe a bunch of joy. That's it...pride and joy and nothing at all resembling shame...no room.
ReplyDeleteI couldn't be happier for you and don't you just love the "easy lbs"???? The ones that slip away when you're not looking.
What sizes (slacks and blouses) do you need? I might be able to send stuff.
Let me know or feel free to e-mail me.
cindylew718@yahoo.com
You are just super, amazingly inspirational. You have accomplished what we all dream of. Congrats on nearing 100!!
ReplyDeleteGo-Chica-Go! Congrats too!
ReplyDeleteThat's fantastic. Congrats!
ReplyDeleteCongrats on your accomplishment! How many ccs does your band hold and how many do you have in there now?
ReplyDeleteThat is amazing!!!! Congrats!!! what an inspiration!! After eating like crap, i am feeling re-motivated reading your post...You should be so proud of yourself!! Also, I wish I had clothes that would fit you but I think they will all be too big for you! you deserve some new things so I hope that you find something that works great!!
ReplyDeletei'll help you climb up to the rooftop to scream! you deserve it. now if you will excuse me, i need to leave your page before i start trying to eat the orange jelly beans off my computer screen.
ReplyDeleteKEEP UP THE GOOD WORK!!!!
Gilly, you are one amazing chick. I'm so so so so sooooo excited for you and happy for you, my Sister of the Stumpy Legs. Six pounds is like a sneeze for you lately, you'll be at 100 in no time. I hear you on the shride/prame thing - me too!
ReplyDeleteKeep up your awesomeness, because I can't wait to bask in your glow in a few weeks. xoxo
So awesome!!
ReplyDeleteYay! Gilly, that is awesome news... I can't wait to join you on that rooftop! *Maria*
ReplyDeleteTwo great milestones, so you should be all PRIDE, and no shame to be seen anywhere:)
ReplyDeleteYou are amazing! Own that hundred pounds. You put your blood, sweat and tears into it-you deserve it!!!
ReplyDeletesay WHAT?!?!?! you rock my socks off! i <3 you!!
ReplyDeleteHoly crap! You are a super hero. Awesome progress.
ReplyDeleteWhere are the new pictures, please? Do NOT even tell me that you won't be memorializing 100 pounds down without pictures... be prepared to do the snaps, please!!!
Gilly.. so wonderful.. really you are there already. [PS I just had a shit fit, for some reason I fell off of your follow list and missed this post... forgive me I don't know what the hell is going on with my blog these days].. Can't wait to see you in Chicago!! hugs
ReplyDeleteAlmost 100 lbs down, that is amazing! You have come so far and you really are an inspiration to me! Once you hit it - shout it from the rooftops. Don't worry about skinny people judging you - I don't think that really happens as often as we think it does! Be proud of yourself and don't let anything or anyone belittle your success. You are fabulous! <3
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