Today, one year ago, I started my liquid diet. I remember sitting exactly here, at the beginning of my journey, not knowing what the new year would hold. And now I know! It was the first year that I've EVER kept my New Year's Resolution! EVER!!! So any of you that are just starting out, or are going through liquid diet hell, it'll be over soon, even though it will feel like forever, and it will be good.
By the way...where did this year go? Huh?? Frankly, I blame the BOOBs, because when you have something so big that you're focusing on and looking forward to, I think it makes the year go by faster (I originally typed "fater" there...typo, or Freudian Slip? You be the judge....no wait...don't judge me...I hate that...)
I don't know why, but for some reason, knowing that my one year "band"iversary (I hate that term...I don't know why, but I do. Too cutesy, maybe?) is almost here feels like an ending to me. Did it to anyone else? I have kind of a "what now???" feeling about it. I mean, obviously I still have miles (and miles and miles) to go, but it's making me feel a little lost. I guess that's coming at a good time, since everybody tends to re-focus at the New Year...but still. Not sure what's going on with me mentally there but I suppose I'll have to figure it out. Any thoughts and suggestions are welcome.
It did to me too, I know what you are talking about. You'll be fine though, just keep doing what you've been doing, you've got this.
ReplyDeleteHi Gilly, I'm a new follower -square in the middle of liquid hell! Arg! Congratulations on your success so far. I love the humor and insight in your blog!
ReplyDeleteMy best advice is don't get lax. I lost a good amount of weight and was feeling good and started to let things slip. Now I've regained 40 lbs really quickly and not feeling good anymore. This cycle seems to have been on repeat no matter what method of weight loss I've tried. Christmas has been especially tough, but I'm getting back on track. Again.
ReplyDeleteI'm feeling a little strange about my anniversary on Jan. 4th. Probably because I've read that most LB patients lose most of their weight in the first year, and I DON'T WANT TO BE DONE YET.
ReplyDeleteYou have totally rocked this year, Gilly. I'm proud of you.
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ReplyDeleteJust banded on 12-21 and I am in mushy hell. Can't wait to see what this year has in store for me. Congrats on all your success! Hope to be in a similar position a year from now! :-)
ReplyDeleteJust wanted to say Hi GILLY! I'm a new follower & blogger myself, hoping to get approved & banded in January. I don't have anything useful to offer you as far as advice in continuing along your successful path. Except to say that ALL anniversaries are events to be CELEBRATED. Do something nice for yourself!
ReplyDeleteMy one year is in March and I think back to last Christmas and I was making the appointment for my consult and SO excited but nervous at the same time. Isn't it amazing how much it changes your life?
ReplyDeletejust blogged about this.... ugh.... lol...
ReplyDeleteYour post made me curious as to when I started thinking about this last year. I always know my bandiversary (sorry) is 4/26/10 but I was trying to remember exactly when I made that first call to insurance, when I went to Temple for the orientation and when I started all of my testing. Turns out is was 2/24/10...it'll be a year before I know it.
ReplyDeleteTry not to worry...I'm with Jen that you simply need to keep doing what you've been doing. Pretend it's only 6 months because it's truly just a date on the calendar and has nothing to do with your future success.
You *have* come full circle...and I'm so proud of you. Onward my friend...
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ReplyDeleteIt was an end for me. For some reason, and maybe its bc it coincided with me meeting my goal of 120 down...things changed a lot for me mentally. I wasnt in such a rush, I was more secure that the band really wasnt going to fail me as long as I didnt fail it,
ReplyDeleteI also realized that I didnt have to be AS crazy psycho about things. So I guess I didnt feel lost, but relieved and more of my "new" self. I think what worked for me after that is still having a goal and a date tied to that goal. It helped to keep me motivated. You know, where do you want to be 2 years out? What do you need to do to get there?
Reading a post like this from a veteran bander is a relief. My husband asked me the other day what I plan to do once hit my 1yr goal. all I could say was "idk, keep working out i guess" I have a feeling I will be the same as you 'anticlamactic'(sp) but happy :)
ReplyDeleteI'm always fighting the "what now" feeling. For me, I think the weight loss issue has turned into a maintenance issue- something I'm always going to have to be aware of (even if fighting the battle is much easier).
ReplyDeleteMaybe we need to start planning another BOOBS trip to help get people excited- you're right, that seemed to be powerful motivator and incentive.
Hi Gilly!
ReplyDeleteI came across your blog, because I was looking for support since I just recently was banded about 3 weeks ago, and have had moments of buyers remorse. Most of the time, I just feel really lost, and like I don't know if I'm doing the right thing, or if I'm eating the right foods, and have been super paranoid about stretching my pouch! And then feel terrible if I get sick from foods that just don't work "with me" anymore. I know it's all a learning process, and I will catch on, but I just wanted to say, I LOVE reading your blog! You are hilarious cause it makes me not feel so "ALONE". Thank you so much for sharing and you've done an AMAZING job on your weight loss so far!! You are truly an inspiration :)
-Jess
http://thechangingcaterpillar.blogspot.com
"What Now?"
ReplyDeleteThere is an easy answer to that, my beautiful, Gilly.
"The rest of your life..." Just think of how far you have come and everything that has opened up for you now that you (all of us) are leading happier, healthier lives.
Happy new Year to you sweetie!
I'm feeling the same way and I'm not even close to my weight loss goal, this past year has just been a whirlwind.
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