Am I really getting this excited about someone stabbing me with sharp objects and altering my physiology for life? Really? It must be the starvation talking!
So I'm finding that, since the dark cloud has lifted, I'm a total chucklehead these days! I'm not used to being in this good a mood. I hope it lasts.
What I need to do is to get off the lap band support groups. They are incredibly helpful, and full of wonderful, supportive people, but I find myself irresistibly drawn to the horror story threads. The band erosion stories, the people who have found, seemingly inexplicably, that the band does NOT curb their appetite and they've lost only 8lbs in a year...all of those threads...I go like moth to flame! I know in my head that these people are the exception by a long shot, and that it probably won't end up being me...but I still go through these little pockets of terror that even this...this incredibly expensive, total end-of-the-road solution...may not be a solution after all. That I'll disappoint everyone, especially myself. Mix that up with the fear of dying on the operating table and leaving my boys motherless, and my GOD it seems so unfair that I can't have a glass of wine right now!!
Aaaaaaanyhoo...other than that everything is going well. Oh, today I effed up and put 2 frozen strawberries in one of the vanilla Medi Trims. I thought that I had an email from the patient co-ordinator telling me it was alright to do that. However, I was mistaken...it was either raspberries or blackberries that would have been ok. Oops. I doubt that the 2 strawberries will throw my progress off or swell my liver or anything, but I felt really stupid about doing it. Not stupid enough to toss the shake (it was SOOO good with the strawberries in it! What a difference 2 strawberries make...you would not have believed it!) but stupid. I won't do it again.
And on I go, forward to day 4!
Wow, you are sooooo close now. Just think only 12 more shakes to go. I still have 42 to think about!! Don't forget they put you to sleep so you won't feel a thing. To bad we couldn't just sleep until all the fat was gone. Good luck.
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