I don't know if I am the victim of reading too many blogs about the effing dark cherry mocha frappuccino, or if it's just a very successful ad campaign on the part of Starbucks...but ARG!!! I swear I am dreaming about them! I haven't tried one yet, ON PURPOSE, because I don't want to get addicted to them...but I can't get them off my mind! Damn you, Starbucks, and your delicious, frothy, caffeine filled beverages!
Which brings up the topic of my relationship with food. If I friended food on facebook, I would have the choose the "it's complicated" button to describe our relationship. It's a love hate thing, and thus far, it's been pretty unhealthy...for me. I was thinking about this yesterday, as I shovelled Fritos into my mouth. The Fritos called me. I know you've heard the call before...it's seductive, and it's loud and it's annoying, and people who eat to live have never heard it. Why were there Fritos in the house? Hubs brought them home, along with 2 other bags of chips, because there was a sale. Ugh. Suffice it to say that the Fritos are now gone, I didn't eat even 1/2 as much as I might have in my other life, but the fact is, they still had a hold over me, and that FUCKING PISSES ME OFF!!!
But here is where the sun comes and pushes all the dark clouds away: in my old life, I probably would have taken that little Frito-fest and turned it into "ugh...I can't do this...I might as well just give up and eat my face off" and that would be it for this "diet". But even in the moment, I knew it wasn't giving up...only that it was a night where I ate some Fritos. Not de-railing in the least! And that's a fairly normal relationship with food, right? I mean, thin people sometimes eat some Fritos, right? And they don't spend days hating themselves for it...right? They just do it and then they move on. So that's what I'm going to do. Moving on!
Great post.
ReplyDeleteWhat you describe is exactly what I hope for myself and my band...a normal relationship with food.
Sounds like you've got it figured out.
i love the "it's complicated" relationship with food :-) i HATE when food talks to me....today it's doritos again....
ReplyDeleteThat's right it's just a night with Fritos,not a surrender. No extremism. BTW I worked for the
ReplyDeleteevil coffee empire for 6 years. Their marketing plan does heavily involve invading your dreams.
Wait there's such a thing as a dark cherry mocha frappuccino? Holy crap...I have to find a Starbucks! Seriously though, you are doing great, Gilly. We are all developing new food relationships and we all know healthy relationships take time to grow!
ReplyDeleteIt takes time to change any relationship. But I refuse to diet on this journey. Good for you for not giving up after the fritos. I remember those days all too well!
ReplyDeleteSo complicated! I like "derailing"! This is just a sign in the road. Get back in the car, dust off and start a new trip!
ReplyDeleteOkay, first things first....they have a freaking frappuccino version of the dark cherry mocha. Thanks a lot for informing us all of that. I've known damn well about the regular mocha and was stupid enough to try one...or three. But, I did look up the calorie content and if you make some moderations they aren't horrible.
ReplyDeleteTall Non-Fat No Whip Dark Cherry Mocha is only 210 calories and like 12 grams of protein. I get it with just 2 shots of flavoring in the tall (I think they normally put 2 or 3) so that has to help with the calorie content too.
Yup. Normal people eat Fritos too. And the sun does come out. Glad you saw it for what it was.
ReplyDeleteBut now I have a bone to pick about us meeting up. I saw your post on Sherry's blog and now I'm afraid of my upcoming visit with you because I will have to make sure I die my hair first and also I will NEE eye-bow wah! Or you won't be able to look at me! But I'll bring my new purse and we can just look at that. Hope your day goes well. The Fritos are gone.
That is eerie, we're so on the same page today. Your avatar (or whatever our little pics are called), came up right next to an actual naked pic of me on my blog, and they were very similar looking... that was even eerie-er. er. !
ReplyDeleteUm first of all - quit whining - instead of dreaming about Starbucks you could be having nightmares of Draz and Sheniqua going at it and Sheniqua's turkey neck is NASTY! I heart you. Fritos suck ass. My brother works at a chip factory so I can get boxes of chips free.....reediculous. Just what an addict like me needs huh?
ReplyDeleteI just had to tell you that you can buy the sugar free chocolate and dark cherry syrup and make the Dark Cherry Mocha at home. I made one this morning and it was great!!
ReplyDeleteGreat post. You're so right that it's one moment, you acknowledge it and move on.
ReplyDeleteI don't drink coffee but that Starbucks drink sounds yummy.
So glad I hate coffee and all things coffee related right now...
ReplyDeleteI completely understand what you are saying. If there is one thing I can tell you to make you feel better though... I tried the dark cherry mocha... AND I DIDNT LIKE IT! :) I guess that is a victory of sorts, huh?
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