Food-wise it has been bad...well, today, at least. Tomorrow, totally on the wagon again, so that I can mop the floors with all you Bathing Suit Challengers. And I have a fill scheduled on Tuesday, so perhaps soon I will be once again unable to eat an entire Denny's burger and fries (yeah you read that right).
In the meantime, I will continue to drool over the recipes in Jennifer's new blog grits, greens and everything in between.
Oh and also, tomorrow morning, is my meeting with my old boss about possibly going back to work. Which is really no big deal, but I'm worrying about it nonetheless. And in trying to decide what to wear, I had to raid my closet for my old work stuff, which, thankfully fits again. Which should be an NSV, but then I got a little down about it, because even though I have worked so hard for this weight loss, realistically, it only puts me back to about where I was before I got pregnant and left work 4 years ago-ish, so nobody's going to see a smaller me...which I am...but only I know it. Is that stupid? It kind of is, isn't it? Yep...I'm being an ass. Ok...fine...bed for me then. Thanks for taking the neuroses train with me! Toot toot!
Um I'm pretty sure we'd all think the same as you about the clothes...but the fact remains all of us bloggies know how much you've lost and WE all notice....good luck - you'll do great.
ReplyDeleteYou'll do awesome! Say hi to the SWLC for me, I miss it! All the nurses are so amazing, I email with them every time I'm feeling neurotic (which is SO often) and they're always so nice about it!
ReplyDeleteGOOD LUCK tomorrow. You'll look fabulous, with four more years of wisdom to show off to your old boss.
ReplyDeleteI understand what you mean, though - I don't really feel like I'm truly in new territory till I get below 162. Which is 71 pounds from now.
You're doing great, girl. Just great.
Good luck tomorrow, I am sure you will do great. And you will blow us all away with your post fill weight loss!
ReplyDeleteWe are so hard on ourselves, aren't we? All of us in blogland are so supportive to each other, but we are so critical when it comes to our own success. Just think if you had to walk into that office and you hadn't lost the weight. Imagine how you'd be feeling tonight. I've been hiding out from work friends from my old job I left 5 years ago because I've gained 60 lbs. They keep asking me to get together and I keep making excuses. I would love to lose the 60 lbs and see them again without feeling self conscious. I understand what you are saying, but don't minimize your accomplishment.
ReplyDeletegood luck :-)
ReplyDeleteditto with you on that! I weigh now what I weighed 3 years ago wehn I got pregnant with Bryce... So, we're in the same exact boat!
ReplyDeleteGood thing is soon we will both weigh even less... and less... and less...
Thank you for being there for me this weekend as well, you gave me some great advice that I'm definitely going to take to heart.
Good luck today! *hugs*
I'm sure you looked gorgeous today. Good luck with your fill tomorrow...
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